Road to Recovery

Can I just say, hallelujah! Koach and I are testing and easing me into using my knee again. I was able to join in the WOD with everyone on Friday and today. Over the weekend, my knee felt okay, not worst, which is a good sign post WOD. I’m excited we’re making progressions to get me back into it all, but I feel…inadequate. Perhaps that’s the wrong word. Impatient? Antsy? Frustrating? Yes, those work better.

I feel like a team player again, as opposed to my Lonely WOD’s which can be depressing because I don’t get to play with everyone. But I feel held back and that frustrates me. And I know Koach can see it, which is why he reminds me why we’re taking it slow. Needless to say, I’ve been reminded of my failure at Open Games WOD 12.3. I was toying with the idea of doing the last Open Games WOD, Koach sensed that, and he rightfully advised against it. Had he not said anything, I might have gone for it. Getting right back into RX-ing WOD’s has not gone well for me, so this is a a safer approach. I get that. Doesn’t mean I like it.

Today, for example, strength skill were back squats, I was told to use a hard target (small box) so that I ensure that I’m using just booty to bring myself up rather than quads and knees. I haven’t had to use a target since my early days of CrossFit. The WOD included OH squats, and I again had to use a hard target. There were also burpees in the WOD. I almost have to retrain my brain to make sure that I am landing on my heels when coming back in, rather than my toes - which is what is hard on my knees.

I have to constantly remind myself that this is the road to recovery that I have to take and not get mad at the fact that I can’t chase those I usually chase or try to beat everyone’s time…just yet. Koach even said to me, “Today’s not the day you try to beat everyone’s time,” but rather that I need to focus on my movements.

The competitor in me has trouble with this. But getting my knee all better trumps the urge. I will follow Koach’s orders.

Well, here it is folks! Let me walk you through. June 2009 There are ??? for the pounds because I had no clue, I wasn’t weighing myself and not really watching what I was eating. I would watch what I ate for couple weeks, fall off the wagon, start again, fall off, it was a vicious cycle. And this picture was taken at Runyon Canyon in Hollywood and I remember nearly dying climbing it. Had many moments where I questioned if I could make it to the top, but I pushed on. Look at the thighs…yikes. The cheeks….eek. January 2010 I was at about 180lbs here, could be a little more. It was soon after this picture that I began getting serious about getting fit and healthy. This was hiking the Hollywood Sign trail which was brutal at the time for me. I have yet to go back to this trail, though I want to, to see how much better I can handle it now. Again, the thighs….the cheeks…..ahh. May 2010 Roughly a 4-5 month jump from the previous picture and at 149.8lbs, therefore, a 30lbs weight loss accomplished at this point! I’m feeling great at this point, clothes are fitting much better and loose! BUT, still not done with my journey, knowing the last few pounds are the hardest to shed. July 2010 This is me today at 143.8lbs, now down 36.2lbs. Since I see myself everyday, I don’t see as much difference as others may who don’t see me daily. But looking through these pictures helps me see just how far I’ve come and how proud I really should be. I’m still not done, but I know I can do it, even if it’s slowly. I had been so frustrated but haven’t stopped to think that in reality I haven’t been doing this THAT long and I have to be patient. And I have to play around with my eating when necessary. Like my trainer says, “the body is like a Rubix Cube, you have to keep changing things to make it work for you at this time, right now”. Someone asked me what I have started to do to tweak my eating. Well, after speaking with my trainer, Kris, and my fitness aspiration, Maria, we decided that I should try to lower my fat count, but still keep the calories around the same. To definitely not stray from fats, and definitely not go to Low-Fat, Fat-Free or processed foods, but just lower the fats and even out the ratio of fats, proteins and carbs. For example, if I am having lean chicken breast, then I could add some avocado to my salads or butter to my broccoli/zucchini, but if I’m having a fattier meat like steak, then to just stick to piling in the nutritious veggies as the side, no extra fats. It’s exciting to experiment with my eating and see the outcome!
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Well, here it is folks! Let me walk you through.

June 2009 There are ??? for the pounds because I had no clue, I wasn’t weighing myself and not really watching what I was eating. I would watch what I ate for couple weeks, fall off the wagon, start again, fall off, it was a vicious cycle. And this picture was taken at Runyon Canyon in Hollywood and I remember nearly dying climbing it. Had many moments where I questioned if I could make it to the top, but I pushed on. Look at the thighs…yikes. The cheeks….eek.

January 2010 I was at about 180lbs here, could be a little more. It was soon after this picture that I began getting serious about getting fit and healthy. This was hiking the Hollywood Sign trail which was brutal at the time for me. I have yet to go back to this trail, though I want to, to see how much better I can handle it now. Again, the thighs….the cheeks…..ahh.

May 2010 Roughly a 4-5 month jump from the previous picture and at 149.8lbs, therefore, a 30lbs weight loss accomplished at this point! I’m feeling great at this point, clothes are fitting much better and loose! BUT, still not done with my journey, knowing the last few pounds are the hardest to shed.

July 2010 This is me today at 143.8lbs, now down 36.2lbs. Since I see myself everyday, I don’t see as much difference as others may who don’t see me daily. But looking through these pictures helps me see just how far I’ve come and how proud I really should be.

I’m still not done, but I know I can do it, even if it’s slowly. I had been so frustrated but haven’t stopped to think that in reality I haven’t been doing this THAT long and I have to be patient. And I have to play around with my eating when necessary. Like my trainer says, “the body is like a Rubix Cube, you have to keep changing things to make it work for you at this time, right now”.

Someone asked me what I have started to do to tweak my eating. Well, after speaking with my trainer, Kris, and my fitness aspiration, Maria, we decided that I should try to lower my fat count, but still keep the calories around the same. To definitely not stray from fats, and definitely not go to Low-Fat, Fat-Free or processed foods, but just lower the fats and even out the ratio of fats, proteins and carbs. For example, if I am having lean chicken breast, then I could add some avocado to my salads or butter to my broccoli/zucchini, but if I’m having a fattier meat like steak, then to just stick to piling in the nutritious veggies as the side, no extra fats. It’s exciting to experiment with my eating and see the outcome!

143.8 I have not posted my weight in a while because I usually only post when there is a change and my weight has been in the constant same range of 3-4lbs, the lowest having been 146.9. -3.1lbs? I’ll take that and run with it!!!! I actually hadn’t even been weighing myself for the last couple weeks out of frustration of it not moving much! I was glad I wasn’t gaining but I wasn’t done, so it was frustrating! Hopefully I can just proceed with lower numbers from here on out! I have done some tweaking in my eating thanks to my trainer Kris, Maria, and Liz (all fellow crossfitters)!
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143.8

I have not posted my weight in a while because I usually only post when there is a change and my weight has been in the constant same range of 3-4lbs, the lowest having been 146.9.

-3.1lbs? I’ll take that and run with it!!!! I actually hadn’t even been weighing myself for the last couple weeks out of frustration of it not moving much! I was glad I wasn’t gaining but I wasn’t done, so it was frustrating!

Hopefully I can just proceed with lower numbers from here on out! I have done some tweaking in my eating thanks to my trainer Kris, Maria, and Liz (all fellow crossfitters)!

PEACE OUT 150’s! Honestly do not remember the last time I have seen anything under 150 at all. I have my physical in June so I’ll ask my doctor (since I’ve had a physical every year of my life)! I yelped in the bathroom seeing this, by myself, naked, at 7:15 am before work. Happy gal here. Although I had hit a slight plateau, I wasn’t about to give up, I kept doing what I was doing by eating right and exercising. And this number is barely out of the 150’s, but I plan to keep going. Just keep on truckin’…
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PEACE OUT 150’s!

Honestly do not remember the last time I have seen anything under 150 at all. I have my physical in June so I’ll ask my doctor (since I’ve had a physical every year of my life)!

I yelped in the bathroom seeing this, by myself, naked, at 7:15 am before work. Happy gal here. Although I had hit a slight plateau, I wasn’t about to give up, I kept doing what I was doing by eating right and exercising. And this number is barely out of the 150’s, but I plan to keep going. Just keep on truckin’…

Confession: I Snuck a Peek at The Scale This Morning….

And I am .6 lbs away from leaving the 150 range FOR GOOD!!!!

Who knows if by tomorrow’s Weigh-In-Wednesday I’ll be out, but definitely hoping by next week I’ll be able to say

“PEACE OUT 150’s!! HOPE TO NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!!!”

Why You Shouldn't Trust Your Scale

nutritionista:

The scale never tells the whole story. Does this make you feel better, Johana?

This is [hopefully] exactly what I am going through! Although sadly I can’t afford a trainer right now to tell me cold hard facts, I do FEEL better, and can do more physically and seeing slight changes in how my clothes fit. Slowly, but surely, I will get there. Thanks Leah!