Winter in LA. This is why I pay what I do to live here. This almost made up for me not being able to do 12.2. Almost.
A sad (yet delicious) kind of dinner from last night.
It’s pretty tragic when you’re off work late, and in order to not eat too late at home, you stop by Whole Foods and put together a meal of quarter rotisserie chicken, baked plantains and a cucumber/tomato/red onion salad with lemon juice and pepper, and eat it in the car drive home.
Was in a car accident on my way back from work and still went to WOD. Crazy or dedication? Both.
Being Hard on Yourself
It’s been recently pointed out to me that I’m very hard on myself when it comes to CrossFit. To the point where I felt I had to explain myself. I was hard on myself after Fight Gone Bad, and I once again was hard on myself after Barbells for Boobs this past weekend (post on that later).
I only get to come in to CrossFit 310 about once a week, twice if I’m lucky, because of the hours I work and how far I work. I would feel different if that’s how it had always been, but that’s not the case. When I began CrossFitting, I was in the box about 3x a week or more. I had a set schedule for it and loved it.
I went from being a regular to abruptly being that girl who comes in every now and then.
I went from being in the box 15 minutes early to rushing in 15 minutes late to make it in time to change and WOD.
I went from collecting PR after PR, to my PR’s being fairly far and in between.
I went from progressively getting stronger rapidly to building strength far slower than others.
I went from being one of the regulars that everyone knew to the girl that most of the newbies don’t know.
It’s frustrating. But it’s the cards I was dealt for now and I must deal. Because that is life.
So no, I didn’t lose my spark for this little thing we called CrossFit and no, I don’t really want to go to another box, I love my CrossFit 310 family.
WOD - DNF 110623
warmup - All with med ball
3 x 150m run / wall tosses / squats / lateral jumps over med ball
Skill / Strength: Work through progressions to get better in either push ups or pull ups or HSPU’s. I worked on my kipping… more on that in a bit.
WOD
Run 150m
Wall Throw 21/15/9
Squat 21/15/9
Lateral Jump 21/15/9
Time: DNF due to injury.
I have not had a DNF from injury (or at all) in a very long time! It’s heartbreaking. But during the lateral jumps over the med balls my right thigh kept tightening more and more every time I jumped and put weight on it. I knew I had to stop so that it wouldn’t completely pull. I do not want to be out of commission so knew I had to suck it up and walk away to tell coach my sitch. Sigh.
Pictured above is me being a good girl and icing it as I have leftover bacon-wrapped chicken bits from yesterday.
Instantly this has become the worst Cinco de Mayo ever.
Sunny, you will be missed dearly and I’m so glad you got to live a long and happy 10 years of life. You certainly made a mark with your personality on anyone you met. All my closest friends have some sort of story about you…you sure were a legend. Definitely the pet with the most personality I have ever seen. Forever missed and never forgotten. Love you.
R.I.P. June 15, 2000 - May 5, 2011
Another episode of sad dinners…
Poland Mourns Their President's Death After a Plane Crash
Polish President Lech Kaczynski, his wife, and numerous Polish military officials (97 dead total) have been killed in a fatal plane crash over Russia.
Sadness.
Just found out our rabbit (sister and I’s rabbit, Sunny, who lives with my mom and will be 10 years old in June) is sick. He has diarrhea and that is very dangerous for rabbits in general, but specially for an old rabbit. Going to see him during lunch break. Little guy better pull through. I couldn’t stand it if anything happened to him.
Found out cell phone bill went up even more because of stupid state taxes/charges. eff my frikkin’ life.
loves it.
Yep. This is what I am missing out on right now. Definitely not amazeballs to me.
It is SO nice outside, like 80 degrees nice, and I’m stuck in the damn office
pity party, party of 1!
Heart on the Sleeve Moment
I was wary about watching “Dear John”, not because I might think it’s corny, but that I, as I always do, will put myself in the shoes of the characters, and considering the subject matter, nothing good could come of it.
But I was intrigued, and the bestie had been wanting to see it. I had a 30% off coupon to the theaters good for two tickets. We had no other plans tonight. I was convinced.
Started out not too bad, bit cheesy, but a cute cheesy. Keep in mind I’ve never read the book. Then it started to get more sad and more dramatic and I was brought back to thoughts of him.
Unfortunately, he is never too far from my mind, and I hate that, yet somewhat at ease with it in a weird way. Never do I stop blaming myself for ending the best that had happened to me for a reason as dumb as distance. And what was “Dear John” about? The heart wrenching trials and tribulations of distance and time apart.
Tried to be strong and not shed one tear in front of the bestie, I hate emoting any sign of weakness, I hate showing that to this day I am still not over it. I hate admitting that to this day, if he would have me back, I would accept.
He was my third serious relationship, but by far the one I’ve loved more than I thought possible. And I know many people have said this after a heart break, but I am honestly not sure if I will ever love and click with someone the way I did with him. Only time will tell, and I’m sure I will love again, just not sure if it will be as deep as it was.
What does everyone say? Time will heal? Well, yeah, in this instance, I hate time. But, I will end this on a good note. I am extremely grateful for the friends and family I do have, that I have a full time job in this economy, that I am on the road to getting healthier, with great help from the likes of you Tumblrs. So I thank you.
Body of newborn found in Redondo Beach trash can
Hate to be a downer on this hump day, but come on, some people are despicable. There was a safe surrender site a 1/2 mile away.
Disturbing Reality
I just came across a post from someone on my dashboard which I won’t reblog because not sure if they want me posting it for everyone who follows me to see but some of the tidbits are:
- She is at the heaviest she has ever been
- She KNOWS it’s not healthy
- Bothered by the fact that some people think obese people are stupid because they don’t do anything about their weight
- Hates when the blame is put on said obese person (jojo note: who’s else is the blame on is my question? You choose to put what you put in your mouth and how often you eat it. Life is about choices.)
- Watched an episode of the Biggest Loser and spent rest of night on phone with her friend convincing her to not take her life… (jojo note: Speaking of taking your own life is an extremely serious and sensitive issue. And this may be harsh to say but that would just be an easy way out and deserves medical attention (counseling/therapy). Is that a way to go through life, taking the easy way out? I personally find inspiration from the contestants on the Biggest Loser. It proves that it does not come easy to lose weight, you have to change your entire lifestyle and eating habits. Obviously the results on Biggest Loser are faster than the norm because these contestants are lucky enough to be on a camp with a nutritionist/doctors/trainers/cooks for an entire 6 months, but it is obviously possible).
- She also talks about being embarrassed going into a gym filled with “skinny” people. Which is why she never goes into the gym that is offered free to her through her job. (jojo note: That is fear talking. And not to mention the thought that the world revolves around you in thinking that everyone will stare at you. I am by no means a “skinny” person at the gym, and I am also not obese, but when I do see someone at the gym that is obese, I have a sense of pride inside because it shows people that you are taking that step to get healthier and not just settling. I never ever think, “Ew, what are they even doing here?” Never. I have no reason to. There is no need to hide.
- Has the mentality that she will always be fat even if she eats right and exercises. (jojo note: I’m no expert, or qualified, so I’d like to refer to a famous motivational quote, “If you think you can, you can, if you think you can’t, you’re right”.
Not everyone may agree what I said in my “jojo notes” but it is my opinion on the matter and I really hope she feels better overall with life.
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