So, a little over a year ago when the ex and I had decided to try again after our initial break up, I had lost some weight due to being sad and crap, the usual post break up case of the sads.
After hanging out again, trying again (whatever that means), he had the audacity to tell me:
I don’t want you to get defensive or mad…..but I think you were hotter when you were a bit thicker….
What the bloody fuck! Now if that’s not a mind fuck then I don’t know what is. Specially at a time when I was clearly vulnerable and in a delicate state having just dealt with break up shit. So of course I took that to heart, and no I didn’t keep my mouth shut:
What the fuck? How am I supposed to take that? You want me to plump up? Not happening buddy!
I gave a strong response, but still, his initial statement stuck with me for a while. Of course I wanted him to find me as most attractive as ever, but I wasn’t willing to deliberately gain weight either. Instead, I believe I subconsciously gained some weight back with that statement in the back of my mind, even after breaking up yet again. That was a little over a year ago.
Now? It’s all about me and for me. I’m doing this for myself and not for the vanity of it all (just partly), but to be healthy and not let anyone tell me otherwise. Bastard.
The Date (pictured above was my outfit of choice)
Okay, so I went out on a “date” last night. I use the term loosely because we met up for happy hour at a bar/lounge. So in ThinnerThoughts’ footsteps I joined OkCupid *sigh*. I never really saw myself joining one of those sites but at the same time was really tired of meeting guys at a bar. Most of them just want to get to laid or are utter bags of douche. So I signed up, made my profile, and waited to see what happened or how many creepers would come out of the woodwork. I really like the fact that I could filter out people, like age range I have filtered is 25 to 35 and must live within 25 miles of me, etc.
Gladly, when someone messages you, you can see their profile pic, and let’s be honest here, there HAS to be that initial physical attraction at first, and if I didn’t feel that initial attraction, I for the most part just wouldn’t even open the message. Then there were some that caught my eye…so I explored. Seem normal enough, definitely cute and pretty local…not too shabby. So we text, chat and add each other on Facebook (because you know that is like super important so we can troll each others profiles and see if we REALLY want to meet or not).
Anyway, so now the date. We meet at said bar, I was a little late because of stupid parking. I stroll in, mentally crossing my fingers that he isn’t a troll that just pictures well. Think we were both pleasantly surprised (or relieved haha) and we hugged it out.
In the end, he seems like a really good guy, good values and we laughed a lot, shared a lot of stories, how we grew up, family, we both tried alligator tacos for the first time and there weren’t any awkward silences. So all is good. We both said we should go ride our beach cruisers soon, but this weekend I have my Warrior Dash competition so I’m busy, so we will see!
Let’s hope THIS doesn’t happen tonight! ‘Tis is le “date” night.
Long chat on phone [which I honestly haven’t done in a long time even with friends - we either text or in person mostly] with guy #2. Very interesting fella! No awkward silences is a good sign so far :)
Confession: Kinda nervous for the “date” tomorrow
Well, I wouldn’t necessarily call it a “date”…more like a hang out. Anyway, it’s been over a year since having gone out on a proper date due for it taking that long to get over previous crap.
What to wear, what to wear…
P.S. We’re going to get Japanese BBQ :)
Calories Burned During Sex
Activity group: Foreplay
- Using vibrator
- personal size
- Using vibrator
- industrial size
- with saddle
- Wrist wrestling
- to see who gets to be on top
- Nagging her/him into doing it
Activity group: Positions
- Man 32
- Woman 16
- Woman above
- Woman 75
- Man 23
- “Canine” variation
- Man 35
- Woman 15
- “Wheelbarrow” variation
- Man 59
- Woman 78
- “Weightlifter” variation
- Man 100
- Woman 45
- Spotter 13
- “Caribbean Pirate” variation
- Man 47
- Woman 33
- Parrot 4
- VIA: CALORIE LAB
God gave men both a penis and a brain, but unfortunately not enough blood supply to run both at the same time.
I only like two kinds of men, domestic and imported.
This can’t ring more true in our society today. Coincidently enough, a friend of mine told me of conversation she had with a colleague. Her colleague, who is a mother to a 9 year-old boy, was at the store with her son who had asked her to buy him something that she considered too feminine. His mom’s horrendous response?
No, I will not buy you that, I’m not raising a fag!
Her reasoning was that that is not something that is accepted in their culture at all. Poor reasoning for the sake of the child. *sigh*